In Days of Trouble
- Anonymous
- Oct 20, 2024
- 2 min read
“That might not mean He will heal relationships, but He can heal my heart.”
“and call on me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me.” Psalms 50:15 NIV
Today I need this one. It’s a day of trouble, and I’m fighting anger and bitterness. One of those days when you find out that someone you love dearly does not care for you at all (I’m not talking about my marriage). I found out today that I am disposable. Unnecessary. Unwanted. And boy, is it hard.
My mind is reeling with amazing comebacks, perfectly clear perspectives, and “that’ll teach them a lesson”. What a hole it is. It’s dark in here. It’s not fixing anything and more than anything it’s trapping me deeper and deeper.
I really don’t want that. I want to focus on Jesus. Because I can’t control other people’s actions or feelings. I can’t really control my own emotions. But I can fix my eyes on Jesus. He has promised that when I call to Him in times of trouble, when I’m deep in the pit of anger and bitterness, He will rescue me.
That might not mean He will heal relationships, but He can heal my heart. He might not give me the opportunity to share my thoughts with those who hurt me, but He can heal my tongue and prevent me from making matters worse. And when the spiral of thoughts hits me again, He will rescue me from that too. And I will choose to praise Him. His love doesn’t change. His promises are forever.
This kind of hurt feels a bit like a death. But even in the valley of the shadow of death, I have nothing to fear. Because He is with me. And I can put my trust in Him.
He isn’t surprised. His plan is good. This world is broken. God sent Jesus into the world not to condemn it, but to save the world through Him.
Action Steps:
Reflect: What dark hole are you currently in? Are you holding on to anger or bitterness?
Reflect: How can you fix your eyes on Jesus this week, letting go of all the hurts? What are some practical steps you can take?
Written by an Anonymous Mom, with a broken but healing heart