Jesus Is the Only Prescription
- Cathrine Schmelzer
- Jun 19
- 3 min read
“This 'fall' wasn’t punishment, it was His agape love. He has not been giving me answers at this time because He knew if I had answers, I wouldn’t need Him”
“Look, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction” Isaiah 48:10
My health had been bubbling for years. Mysteries rising to the surface that no doc seemed to have answers for. Symptoms roaring their ugly heads, only to display their unkindness at the least opportune times. Motherhood isn’t always a walk in the park, and added health worries makes it so much more exhausting. So naturally, my personality set off to find answers.
I turned to Jesus first, but when He did not give me test results revealing how to get better, I turned to research. I turned to multiple doctors. I turned to a closed-fist of all consuming ‘I’ll-figure-it-out-myself’. And all of it left me with more dead ends than answers.
So as I sat in a very familiar spot, sobbing, grasping for anything… for symptoms to subside, for answers, for tests, for the strength to keep momming for another day… I sat, listening to worship, when the chorus practically jumped out on my phone. I saw it in bold like it was written on a billboard.
“Don’t let me take a fall, to bring me to my knees again, but if it’s what I need, I’ll take my place”.
Gratitude clung to my heart. Hope filled my mind. Peace that surpasses understanding consumed me. I heard God clarify that I needed to take my place before Him. This “fall” wasn’t punishment, it was His agape love. He has not been giving me answers at this time because He knew if I had answers, I wouldn’t need Him (insert my do-it-myself personality). His lack of answers wasn’t distance, it was a lesson I will need forever. It was a season of refining and re-tuning that my heart needed, and it needs Him more than any answer a doctor would give me. I needed to be brought to my knees to know my place, HIS place in my life. And I will need this reminder every.single.day, in every season.
As much as I would love to boast that the Lord has healed me, He hasn’t. And that is ok too. Because through this I've learned more about Him and His truth that goes far beyond my thinking. His word reigns true, and I'm thankful for another opportunity to learn His word and tuck it away in my heart.
And though I think it unfair that moms get sick (that's a question I have for when I get to heaven)... I know my flesh and heart will fail on this earth, but God is my portion (Philippians 4:13). He proves to me that life is fleeting, and our souls hold such a more important role, (James 4:14) and that this suffering here on earth produces much more that we can think (Romans 5:3-4).
Those lessons I have learned are so much more special than test results. Those lessons will be shared and taught and passed down to break generational cycles of thinking worldly. I can't put a price on the compassion He has for me and my babies. And I am eternally grateful that He meets us where we are, day after day.
Action steps:
Listen to Hillsong “Sure Thing”
Get silent with God for a few minutes, for a few hours. Ask Him to meet you where you are. He will, He promises so.
Don’t know what scripture reflects your season? Google it. Search in your Bible. Read about what God says concerning your issue/desire/missing link.
Prayer: Lord, we come to You thankful for this season You have placed us in. You have created this day for us and us for this day. Let nothing of it go to waste. Teach us about who You are. Sustain us while we learn these things. Meet us where we are. Have compassion on us mamas. Give us Your joy and peace to pass on through motherhood. We thank You. Amen
Written by Cydnee, mom of 4, relearning my place